☮ Heartbreaker ☮

Today is my 4 mnths anny w my dear.. I love u so much dear, i just cnt let u go tat easily. For the past 4 mnths, i have been very patience for any things tat occur. Firstly, about the rumours i heard and ppl telling me. I listen to wat they said but sometimes i try to ignore itt, i noe i cnt but i try to. Many things they said to me, true or not, i must accept it. I try to solve things out by askin help from ppl, from ur frends,, Its not tat i dont trust u wen u telling me things, its just tat not tat 100% trust, but i try to trust u, seriously. Secondly, bout u and him. After i heard tat u and him doin something behind me, it was really hurt, but i try to solve things fast by forget it and forgive. To tell u the truth, i still cnt forget tat.. tats is wat i am. Thirdly, since tat tragedy, my frens do told me tat you done something behind me, but i cn still carry on w u, wtf! They say im stupid to move on w u..They told me to let u go, i was hurt by their words, really. But, luckily tis 2 frends of mine advise me to talk things out, dont hear wat they said to me.. make up ur own decision..and my decision is to move on w u. They said im really really stupid guy. WTF! Wat i hate the most is my own fren said to me tat i take u as my gf because of ur looks and body. i was liked, if i were to be like tat, i would be usin u because of ur body and do wat i want to u, and after tat look for a gerl w body and looks. Nabeh cibai, senang2 kau nk ckp gtu, kau fikir aku ape siol? pakai otak bro. Kau nk ckp org, kau g cermin diri sendiri sebelom kau bual psl org. This is my life, its my fuckin life, i cn be w who i want. Kau ckp2 gitu pon tetap kau bual2 ngn matair aku, msg dier psl nk carik aku.. ape maksod kau siol? Ku bukan ape uh, bukan nk burok2 kan kau, cuma aku ader perasaan uh siol. nie mcm kau kater kwn, biler kau susah psl pompan, aku ader ckp tu semua mcm maner kau ckp pat aku? kalau ader, ok lah, mayb kau nk ungkit balek. Tapi kalau tkde amcm? Mayb aku tk boleh slalu ajak matair aku lepak ngn krg uh. Sorry uh kalau krg nk ckp aku cap nonok ke ape, mulot krg, betol? I'll do wat im suppose to do. Not happy, Fuck off.

This is e way i let out my feelings, tk suka, leh g mampos. Nie blog aku.